"Soul for me is a nirvana, a state of grace", says the singer. She has stopped going around with a bevy of bodyguards because "if you act like a normal person, people treat you accordingly". And she has learned to reject firmly any attempts at media intrusion into her private life. This does not mean that she did not enjoy posing in front of the camera with her tum. "I like to transform myself like a chameleon. The photos showing me pregnant seemed brave and strong to me, just how I feel at this time".